I need to come back... dear Lord!!!

Yup sudahla dengan keadaan saya yang makin merisaukan ne, lepas abis flu hari tue, sa rasa smakin lemah longlai.. cam ada byk lagi toksin dalam badan sa yang sa x berjaya keluarkan... akibatnya, sa rasa semakin malas.... sa kena "come back" macam ne kalau tidak susah sa dpt "flying colors" dalam academic sa sem ne.. kalau CGPA makin turun, takut pla sa "give up" tuk teruskan course ne..... stakat ne sa blum ada "contigency" plan tuk menyelesaikan masalah ne... apa yg sa boleh buat stakat ne sekadar memohon pertolongan Tuhan melalui doa saja ne...adeiii sedihnya...

The Lowest Level of My Roller Coaster

whatever it is, during the holiday after Melaka trip, my lifes goes upside down, I was bedridden for almost 4 days, messed up my interview, havent finish my assignments, I'm getting lazier, I got tired easily, I get emotional too soon..I forgot about God, forgot to pray.. in short, I felt like HELL right now and I dont like this situation at all.. Too much toxin is currently resides in my body.....

Im' Extremely Disatisfied

Today is currently the saddest and most dissapointing day of my life so far.. not being emo actually, but I was totally devastated by the presentation for Environment Subject, especially for our group..

Saya sekarang dalam mood untuk menyalahkan satu2 pihak dan rasanya nda berapa adil saya berperasaan macam tue, tapi kalau sa x luahkan takut bernanah perasaan negatif saya ini..

Grp kami telah menjadi mangsa pengurusan yang lemah, kami ada masa ckp tuk prepare tapi kmi x diberi guide yang lengkap tuk task kmi, ada sstengah part yang kami langsung x tau yg harus kami wat tuk mendapat markah yang sepatutnya... K mula2 lecturer kami dah bagi lampu hijau tuk isi2 yang kami akan bentangkan, tetapi bila sudah sampai masa pembentangan tiba2 ne lecturer lain cakap kami wat poster salah... ada masalah dengan tajuk, katanya tajuk sepatutnya lebih specific lagi. Dia x mau pun tengok pembentangan kami macammana dan terus tanya soalan.... sedangkan grp lain mau sampai setengah jam dia luangkan masa, siap tolong grp lain lagi...and then bila tiba giliran kami akhirnya, tak mau tanya lebih mendalam pla..

Sakit hati saya masa tue, segala usaha keras ktorg tuk cr isi, saya design poster, sy baca rujukan sampai x tidur semalaman utk presentation, dipandang sebelah mata sahaja oleh penilai ini. Phamplet pula last minit ja kmi sempat print, tu pun last minit wat, padahal arahan ne sudah sepatutnya diberitahu sebelum cuti, sekurang-kurangnya sempat lagi mau wat kalau tau awal2.... Poster tu sendiri tu pun ada kurang 2 lagi point yg penting tuk markah.....

Pendek cerita, kami mjd mangsa keadaan dan kami yg tanggung akibatnya, Yup Im' being emotional right now I know that but I can't help it...

p/s: Sabar sajala, next time kan ada lagi~~

Movie Review.. Avatar

Heh~~ apakan daya sudah lama sa tak tengok wayang sbb asyik layan assignment ngan drama korea jak ehehe... sekali tengok movie.. trus masuk di otak ba.... Pendeknya Avatar mmg berbaloi tuk di"layan" lah~~

First time sa dgr review pasal Movie ne, sy tak berani tengok sbb ada yg bilang plot dia sangat rumit... yup sa stuju akhirnya lps tengok muvi ne, tapi kalau cuba try fahamkan di awal2 cerita barula masuk logik creta tue..

Ada 3 aspek yang ditekankan dalam cerita ini pada pendapat saya, 1>Masa Hadapan 2> Pencarian Sumber dan 3> Conflict antara dua makluk berbeza..

Synopsis> Jake tlah kehilangan kembarnya yang merupakan seorang saintis, kembar dia ne ada "avatar"nya sendiri, k yg part ne sbntar lagi saya terangkan... Jake ne salah seorang daripada askar military tetapi dia direquest oleh goverment utk mengambil alih tempat kembarnya sbg "host" avatar dia, dengan reward dia dapat berjalan seperti biasa, Jake sorg kurang upaya sbb lumpuh bahagian bawah badan... hmm sa tau yang part avatar tu yg buat confuse kan? Bg yg suda tingu pun rsnya masih ada jg yg binggung tue ehehe...

Pada zaman akan datang, manusia semakin kekurangan sumber, terutamanya mineral dari batu-batuan, so lepas lebih ntah berapa puluh tahun sa pun x ingat, dorang jumpa la planet yang seakan2 planet bumi, digelar Navi, tp planet ne mmg cantik gilak la ehehe, sumber2 mmg byk, tp ada halangannya, kaum "Avatar" menguasai planet tsb, lebih kurang mcm manusia menguasai bumi la... so manusia kira mau "jajah" planet ne la tuk dapatkan sumber tue...... so ada dua pihak yang terlibat, 1 pihak mau jajah dgn peperangan/ military... satu pihak lagi yang mau guna pendekatan diplomasi/rundingan ngan kaum Avatar....

So pihak yg "diplomasi" wat la projek "avatar" dengan mencipta makluk tu sendiri tetapi dengan minda seorang manusia.... camna mau trangkan ah?? k contohla ko ada satu lagi badan baru yang hidup... tetapi teda "roh"... so manusia akan guna la "roh" mrk sbg host Avatar tue... projek ne kira yang paling mahal berbanding dengan investment tuk military, so kembar si Jake sudah ada avatarnya kan? Tp disebabkan dia sudah meninggal, si Jake la kena ambil tempat dia sbb DNA dia sama dgn avatar yg telah dicipta..... haha paham ka stakat ne? paham ba kan??... yg merumitkan lagi, Jake yg berasal dari Military base ne direquest lagi tuk men"spy" bahagian ne tuk menyiasat selok belok tempat tinggal avatar ne, so dorang dapat attack tmpt tue, reward dia dia dpt berjalan spt besa..

So Jake ikut ja la rancangan dorang ne.. so dia jadi la salah sorang "avatar" di tempat dorang, tjumpa sorang avatar asli, perempuan lagi tue ehehe.. so dia tertarik la ngan dia ne, trus dia tertarik juga ngan kehidupan kaum di sana, sampai suatu ketika dia rasa part dia sbg manusia dianggap sbg mimpi berbanding dgn dirinya sbg avatar, pendek crita dia mmg "jatuh cinta" la dgn role sbg Avatar.. pas tue.. jeng3x tingula sndri.. sa spoil byk suda tue..

p/s: yg lum tingu tue, tingula sbb mmg x rugi.. byk pengajaran dari creta ne, terutamanya value ttg kehidupan~~~

Im going smwhere, wish me a safe Journey!!!

Yup going to Melaka soon, to relief some stress due to campus life, then will cm back to deal with them again.. Im definately going crazy if I don't take this vacation.

So besala pasal assignment ngan test kat kampus tue... kalau mau complaint pun itu2 juga, bosan mendengarkan benda yang sama jak, kan?

Tp sa risau jg ngan perjalanan pg ke Melaka ne, palis2 la x da benda2 terjadi pada kami semua, then kira mau pg Cameron Highlands lg, tp sa risau ngan hal ehwal kampus pla, kalau ditangguh lama2 merana nanti...so sa x mau pg la, sorry Fr x dpt melawat ko this time TT^TT

I think one of my main problem is currently to manage my time. Currently still can't figure out when is my best time according to biological clock..sleeping recklessly, eat not according to time, doing smthing else other than studying.. *sigh* I really need to reset' myself up!! Or else, I might get sick easily...

That's all for now.. btw.. Happy Chinese New Year n Valentines Day to all!!!

......what topic for today?.....

Now is the time that I seriously dont know what to write about today...... and yet here I am typing away uhuhuhuhuh.... Maybe I need a kickstart...kk.... how am I feeling today.....bad....why?..........just got out of bed...................what happened?............ Because I ate the "ikan pari" that contains lots of salts till it enter my brain and it says "duiii masin juga benda yg ko makan ne? Apa ka hal?"

Yesterday was the PSP event...Pesta Sinar Ponggal la....guess what? Im the tresurer for this event, the show was.....good.. am I being too honest here? do you even care? >.<

My, thinking for ideas to write about is sure tiring thing to do, suddenly i think of Japanese drama Honey n Clover for this situation, why that happened? dunno I just too lazy to explain for now....

p/s: idle3x... please stop doing that!!!

seriously my EQ at lowest level at the moment...

I met Prof just now, after numerous attempts to set an appointment with him, finally when I myself am not prepared, I collect my guts to meet with him today..... then I did met him, all I felt(until now) was a relief, regret, sad, disappointed, glad and many more the mixture of it.. moreover, strangely I wanted to cry for being able to finally met him... why the heck I feel emotional about this?.. I wonder...

It was a relief to meet him, because I can discuss about our topic and finally get a clear path of it, I felt regret because I don't meet his expectation, I was sad because I just can't face him the way I faced with my friends, and I'm disappointed because the way I behave during my meeting with him... I act like a "chicken" in front of him..

I was swept away by his tough kindness, he helped me on my materials on what should I read for my group's research, he even printed some for me. Maybe to him, Its just normal to help his students his way, but to me, I felt appreciated, touched by such an act..

Seriously I was brainwashed by how we "ice break", then using his ability to dig out every "bad side" of me, which I myself don't realize and I'm shocked by it... This meeting has definitely a kick start to form a new me.... but I need some time for that..

P/s: Thanks be to God for this day!!!