Lyrics of Maksim - Otpuskayu/ Letting go..

Russian
Отпускаю
Я не могу дышать мне не видно неба
Я не могу понять был ты или не был
Ветром по волосам,солнце в ладони
Твоя...

Красные облака вечер ударилp в спину
Я с тобой так легка я с тобою красива
Бешанно так в груди
Бьеться сердце твое

Отпускаю и в небо
Улетает желтыми листьями
Наше прошлое лето
С телефонными глупыми письмами
Отпускаю и слезы
Высыхают на ресницах
Но как же синие звезды
Нам с тобой могли присниться

Рано еще не быть поздно уже поверить
Я не могла любить я не могла измерить
Месяцы за окном солнце в закатах с тобой
И отпускаюсь вниз и поднимаюсь в небо
Я не могу понять был ты или не был
В сотнях ночных дорог ты остаешься со мной

Letting go
I cannot breathe, I can't see the sky
I can't understand whether you were or if you were not [here]
[touching] On the hair with the wind, the Sun in the palm/hand
[I'm] yours...

Red clouds, evening hit [us] in the back[part of body]
I'm so light with you, I'm beautiful with you
Furiously in the chest
Your heart is beating

Letting go and in the skies
Flies like yellow leaves
Our last summer (to make sence - read this line first, then the second one, then the first one)
With the stupid telephone letters
Letting go and the tears
Are drying on the lashes
But how could the blue stars
Come in the nightdreams of you and me?

It's early not to be, it's late to believe
I could not love, I could not measure
months behind the window, the Sun in the sunsets with you
And I'm getting down and I'm rising up in the sky
I can't understand whether you were here or you were not
In hundreds of night roads you stay with me

P/s: A beautiful song from a russian Singer, Maksim..

Things are recovering~~

Thank god, the water's here, people r behaving more like humans ehehe, hopefully it will stay that way for a long time...

Dear Roomates, If only you read this, Which I don't wish you guys will do~~

Dear girls..


Do you know how disappointed I am for how you guys think of me?
Today I almost messed up at final because of my inablity
to let it go about what you said no matter how much I prayed.. but I'm grateful the paper was over.

Just assuming my decision as "selfish" is totally unfair to me.
For your information, I changed my roomates is mainly because
I'm concerned about my future, all my future roomates are my own
coursemates, because I WANT TO STUDY.. what am I as the U student
if i dont so what I'm supposed to do?

I've been silent about this for a very long time, my patience has gone
out for good, at least I havent said it directly to you guys,
I like you guys, really, but I HATED your "speaker voice"..
especially at wrong timing, that's very rude behavior/attitude girls..
You dont even have the slightest respect of sm1 who is sleeping/need rest
I hated them(speaker) soo much, but I kept silent because I don't want
to shout at you back, if you thought that I'm deaf during my sleep, thanks but no thanks because I'm totally ungrateful of what you think.
Then whenever comes my turn to be a little bit selfish, you kept demanding..
I MIND that for a long time...

Girls, I'm sorry for treating you like this, not even single one of
u r talking to me now, because for my own desision. But I dont think the
blame is all mine, Its how you treat me previously made me do this,
I really think we dont suit each other, better for you find my replacement.

God forgive my sins for being like this, as I forgive them for what they said (really hurtful words).... amen

The most stupid question ever asked...

"Awak ne bukan "laut" ke?"

Yala tue, mentang-mentanglah sa tak pakai tupi macam kamurang (sebab sa mmg tak pakai la!!), lepas tue mengintai lagi IC sa, adei punyalah "rasist" soalan tue sa fikir, sendiri pandai2 fikir la, kalau kat gambar sa macam tue, konfirm la ba sa Non-Muslim, napa nak tanya lagi??

Im seriously sensitive whenever sm1 asks me about my race, especially on how they ask it. "Aw "laut" ek?" "Kmu ne org Sabah/Swk ke?"... What's wrong with u guys??

Well for your information, I have a double race (mix), half-indian and half-kadazan-dusun, and I have great trouble of admitting either one of the race because I don't want to discriminate my other's race, I really don't like the mix-term race, such as Chindian la, Kacukan la, ang mo la... *sigh*

Kalau korg betul2 nak tau bangsa saya, saya akan jawab dengan panjang lebar, sampai korang faham sa bukan setakat berdarah India saja, saya juga bangga sebagai anak dari kelahiran bumiputera, ibu saya berhempas pulas bergadai nyawa melahirkan saya, sampai hati korang tanya soalan yang seolah-olah menidakkan identiti ibu saya!!?? Tak sengaja?? Alasan ja tue!! Cuba la fikir soalan yang sesuai sikit.. Sebenarnya dr soalan tu ja pun sa dah boleh tau korang ne jenis manusia yang mcmmana...

But before I suggest you guys to change your mentality first, its better for me to check myself first, to make sure I'm not one of you "etnosentrisme" fanatics!!

Test, bukan sekadar kertas mengisi kertas kosong

Ujian dari segi mengadapi tekanan emosi (emotional intellingence) adalah tekanan yang paling berat utk saya hadapi. Kalau final, buka buku baca... berdoa dan jawab periksa.. berbanding dengan konflik ngan persekitaran, hmm masalah bahagian sini lebih besar.

I don't like to care abt other ppls bussiness

Because its simply not my nature to be busybody, your private matter is yours alone!! That my priciple... supposedly you cant stand with your problem, better share it amongst your close friends and families only..

Y UMP Y?!!

Haizz tak habis2 lagi ngan masalah air... yg para pentadbir suruh sabar 3x.... dui yaii... this is water we're talking about!! Hello? Sini bukan negara kelas ketiga tau?!! Napa pla minda korang berkelas tiga nih?!! Suda besa ngan masalah air, cb la cr penyelesaian yang konkrit, nda payah lagi balik2 ada masalah kronik mcm ne, kalau tia dpt pun jan la sampai myebabkan pelajar menderita, pakai bus lagi kunun, jam 8.30 suda kena sedia kat bus stop... mimang gilak... apa tida exam sa start jam 9!!

Geram tul, tapi bukan sa ja. Perkara begini memang luar kawalan kita, cuma situasi ini terjadi pada masa yang sangat SALAH... mungkin ne ada bagusnya, biar dorang rasa bagaimana tertekannya kami, cb kalau teda air masa MINDS, hah nanti lari trus pelajar baru tu.. korang sanggup ka kalau itu terjadi??

Ish.. sem ne paling teruk stakat ne...

Mana gambar sa?!!

Haha manada owh!! Kalau mau tingu jgk p ja kat frenster sa..

Sa jenis yg suka kerja kat belakang tabir, tangkap gambar:buli, rakam video:buli
tangkap gambar sendiri:sorry ak nda mau!! Rakam video sendri: Jan Harap..

The truth is I don't really like to take picture of myself, long time ago My parents used to take a lot of pictures of me when I was a child.. the thing is i easily got sick whenever my picture is taken, sometimes I feel paranoid for every pictures that was/is taken, in harsher words, I hate my own pictures smtyms.. I felt those pictures is/was not really me, only few pictures that I liked.

Tu tida lah bermaksud sa langsung tak suka bergambar, cuma sa ne susa hati kalau sa tak puas hati ngan gambar sendri, kadang2 langsung tak menggambarkan diri sa, lebih teruk lagi sa risau org tingu sa dlm gambar cam tu, cam tu la org sangka rupa sy..

Itulah sbb sa tak letak gambar kat sne.. rsnya lebih baik korang tingu "hati" sa sblm tingu diri sa yg sebenar...

Hellz

Yeah I'm in hellish moment, apa tidaknya masalah air tia pandai settle2!!! Bikin gerigitan tul, dah lah masa final. teda smgt mau study sbb otak kering sudah!! Tau la mslh air ne mslh biasa, tapi kan yg sa heran masa ada air pun mana ada inisiatif mau berjimat? paip pun biar ja mengalir berterusan. Tu lah balasan kali tu, byran utk air yang Kami semua BAZIRkan!! Sedy nya org yg caring pasal air pun kena tempias mslh air ne!! Sudah sudah la pasal air ne!!?? Mintak tlg la, cepatkan sket baiki apa2 pun pasal air teda..haizzzz

The Hardest Test at the moment..

Final examination is getting near, I'm supposed to revise for upcoming exam, but I'm getting stressed by by outer surroundings,such as.... no water, no motivation, insensitive individuals.. All i can say is this is the worst sem so far..

Well the factor that I dissapointed the most is the individual factor. People nowadays r just getting in my nerves more and more.. well I guess its because Its final, so everybody is getting stressed.

I'm feeling like running away lah.. and I will do it starting now!!