Finally I got something to say.

the strengh that I'm pursuing is getting far away.
The bad attitude I'm trying to ignore is coming closer.
Annoyed with some1, angry&upset with some1, dissapoint with
myself, worry. worry and keep on worrying.

How strong am I, did I just act strong the whole time?
Just Pretend that I'm though in other's ppl eyes?
Then?
Why?
I'm still like this?

Why? I keep on asking this?
The doubts, I hate them!!

I kept on enviousing to some1 whose are better than myself...
in everything, physical, IQ, EQ, skills, which i knew i can
improve these all by myself.

but, this feeling.. that I've been hiding for soo long
is gushing out slowly.. like a time-bomb.

I'm sad, really sad.. i want to let it go
i want to cry, but my ego wont let me

I need someone, but who?
I'm tired of choosing the wrong one.

tears, I havent let them out lately..
I'm too worry of what ppl might say if they saw me
crying..

God, oh god, r u busy? I need u now, can I have time to talk with you?
Silly question, I know you've been here for me.. It just that I've ignore you
so many times, I'm ashamed to face u, u love me, I knew... but I didn't love
you the same way you did yet, and I'm really sad with this fact.

Its just that, I'm afraid with your answers...unable to do what u told me,
even the basics ones..

I beg u, oh god, guide me.

I'm supposed so...maybe

sa tulis dalam Melayu la k??

Tiket kapal suda diawalkan, ponsikou mama ku sayang <3

Minggu ne ada kuiz dan TEST Math... Uii na~~ bagussss -bagusss (dalam hati mcm mau lari jak hehhe)

Rabu ne ada Product Exibithion for Technical English, sa kira rasa yakin juga la, cuma takut kurang markah, 40% markah banyak gilaaa tue!! O_o

Minggu ne, spatutnya bt presentation utk POM, =_=" lum buat lagiiiii la, astaga..

Quiz linear programming, tulung laa buat khamis ne!!! Astaga ada reheasal MPC lagiii adui yai!!


Hehe sa sbnrnya tak juga cemas2 ne, saja mau luahkan beban di hati, byk pikir2 pun tak guna ooo.. tau da

How's strawberry taste like?

Finally my childhood dream to be able to actually taste the fruit that I dreamed of to eat come true!!! But its kinda disappointing la, its not that good in my imagination, I think I bought the almost matured ones, thank god i gave half of the whole packet to my friend at other block, I managed to finish them today with the help of my roomates, It was very souurrrrrr!! I mix it with chocolate milk (really the expensive but oh well) but it still taste the same..tsk tsk

Oh just now, we were looking for the airport to change the date of our depatures using Airasia, too bad we lost, really2 lost, poor my friend who's one of the driver, it was not your fault dear dont worry about that ^_^

p/s..why the strawberry milk dosen't taste like the original one?

Holiday/honey moon no more TT^TT

This october month onwards, I have to do my revision because the final examinations are coming soon. So I want to give my all this time. BARABIS gitu.. oh btw, the trip to Penang was AWSOME hehehe.. you'll see at the Varsity Student later on so look forward to it ^_^

Busy like hell... cause I'm going to Penang Woo Hoo!!!

Yup I'm joining the College General Penang celebration that will be held at penang next week, cuti raya week. So I have to endure all types of entertaiment this week and finish up my assignment for the sake of joining this without worry, but what im worried about the most is about the final exam on 14 Oct onwards and product exhibition on 13-23!! There's a big chance the date will clash OH ONNOONONONONONONO!!

Its been a while

Yeah its been a while since the last time I posted to this blog. Actually I'm not that busy till I don't have time to write something here but the networking connection here, well as I said in my previous post, its too frustrating even to mention it.

I made some editing to my blog here, so instead of posting here with emotional content, I'll try my best to put it mostly rational and interesting topic here, as least for you guys esp the Varsity students.. I wont add any comment link here. It because I don't think my blog is a place for any discussion watsoever. I mainly made this as a virtual diary, and this is the only place I would do so.

I have a friendster account, and there IS the right place for you to post any comment.. but not about this blog i say. I must make myself clear, here is a place for me to express myself without feeling afraid or worry of being bashed, offensively critised and soo on. And no advise from anyone also pls, I don't need it unless I ask myself from you personally.

Soo, welcome to my blog!!Even if you stumbled upon it accidently!! hahaha!

Aduiii Sedy nyaaa~~~

I recently check my "black market" website and just know that I cant purchase the book I wanted soo much to read anymoreee TT^TT. I really hated the politician for doing this to us the minority. Cmon la y being soo childish, its soo hard to go to the suppliers country, me havent come out from this country yet!! to order it online of coursela impossible cause the CUSTOM really likes to consificate anything that looks suspicious to them.. wasting money and effort only doing that, moreover i dun have credit card, i'm not that rich of a family, got student loans to add, need to pay back again WITH interest..

I just know about this news that was posted weeks ago, and I'm still shaking with agony, the real truth is, I dont have choice anymore,the choices left are go to other country that has local stores to buy them for the translated version, chasing conventions, go to Japan to buy the raw versions... which requires MONEY!! Which I dun have.. tsk tsk


Seriously, If I got the chance, I'm willing to give up my nationality and get out of here!!!

Thats how fustrated i am now...

Ramadan Month

Dunno la what else to type anymore, But anyway I got math's test soon today.... >.<

Im worried sick!!

Blogging, not yet

Product exibition coming soon.... *shivering*

oh ya, the Titas test just now is quite though, but I've at least read 2 chapters and a note from friend, so I'm not so 'blurred' la at that time..

Hmm lots of events coming soon, esp Raya...>.>


K bye 4 now

Head Spinning....

Well lots of stuff to be done this month I guess, test, assignment, project yeah the same things again.. Tonight I Think of hibernating from all these for a while.

Here's my list of worries;

MATH, I got headache for just thinking about it, do you know I finally memorize the sifir darab when I was 11 years old, and I suck at math generally, OH god the new topic really bothers me, once in a week in hell of Mt lecture is more than suffocating to me...*sigh*

titas, the project, *sigh* I just want to quit thinking about it, no comment lor.

Thats all la, bless to the Lord.

p/s I converted my roomates into liking Korean series already muahahahahaha!!

Adui... Sibuk betul..

Minggu cuti sa p sana church tinggal sana satu minggu, memang best jgla, byk cerita2 ngan member2 sana, father bw kami pi Teluk Cempedak, sempat main layang2 lagi.. masa tuh sa kana demam la sket, makan ubat sna lps tu okey la skrg, harap2 sampai bila2 hehe..

Minggu ne sa terlampau la sibuk sebab mau urus dokumen pinjaman ptptn, nasib la hari ne kena terima jg, yang mau tunggu no giliran tu la yang paling payah, lammmmmbbbbaaatttt la tersangat-sangat.. kira mau pg library mau update ne blog (mungkin kot) tp btl2 teda masa oo.. selain ptptn mau ready utk test minggu depan sama projek titas lg, tamba case study test, project report 4 titas and math... atukkooi..

Kalu ikutkan prsn sbnr mcm ada prsn enjoy sikit bt smua ne, tapi yang sa tension ne internet ba, mcm biskut chipsmore kijap ada kijap teda..

Ae, bingung sa masih oo psl mau urus masa2 di dsini ne...

K thank you for membaca rungutan sa ne..