ya taula mmg sudah lama sa nda memblog d sne.. jujur sa katakan minggu lepas mmg sibuk-sesibuk sibuknya, sampaikan teda masa tuk cuci kain baju, sapu lantai,makan, mandi ehhh nda la sampai nda sempat mandi ba ahahaha...
so u guys wondering y only now i started to blog again?? Because I HAVE the time and IM bored... supposedly I'm on the process of revising my subjects to prepare for final, but can't help it laaa.. my brain just won't "digest" whatever I'v read so far, alalala... so alang2 suda bw laptop sne.. biar la sa lepas gian jap, lepaskan stress gitu.. nnt sa sambung study balik.. promise!!!
Hmm sa mulakan ngan creta facebook dlu... makin lama, semakin saya dahagakan perhatian dr laman yg "terchenta" ne.. maksud saya kan, kalau sa shoutout smthing sna, "friends" saya mestila at least tick "like" d post saya atau comment d sna.. tapi kebelakangan ne.. mcm teda sambutan jak, sbb apa jak yg sa post, akan berlalu gitu jak... sedih jg rasanya.. sbb teda yg respon, sedangkan yg kwn sa yg lain kan...ntah buduh2 camna dorang post pun tatap jg ada yg membalas punya... sa benci ngan feeling yg camne, seolah2 sa jeles ngan dorang yg dpt perhatian tue, sa pla nda kana layan.. pastu lama kelamaan sa pikir balik.. kalau gini la keadaannya, bgs sa terminate jak fb tue.. tp jgn la.. byk kenalan sa yg ptg2 sna.. better logout ja la.. abis final bukak lg... so keputusannya.. buat ms skarang jan check fb lu, mcm yg slalu sa wat.. asal ada internet jak... wajib buka fb lu aalalalallalala...
And next, is about smbdy... dun't want to mention his name, at least his gender is known already laa... I'm starting to lose respect of him, especially for what he did to me and my friend. It was a very long story and I dont have much energy to tell in detail, but in short, he had BETRAYED me and how he did it was not very nice and matured at all.. at that time I knew what exactly he did then my friend told me abt it.. I was laughing like mad at first.. but when I saw that many had giving their "support" for what I DID TO HIM (and I 100% believe was not my doing) as he said to everyone abt me.. i was starting to get furious.. I asked him nicely what his intention are.. and how he answered was unexpected.. and the furiousity became even worse... I acted calm at first, but when he started his own "symphaty gaining" game again.. I shoot him back, and asked him to remove what he said on sm website (I think you know which website it is)..... one more thing, the anonymous character he described abt me was not to cover up my name, instead make's other feel more curious to know who it is actually he was referring about... and that alone makes me very2 mad.. until now... Well at least I know his true character at last, I pity him actually at first, but to pity sm1 who does not EVEN try to consider other's feeling also.. i think its not worth it.. now my feelings for him is almost going towards hatred... I dislike him now seriously, every time he sweet start talk to me or anybody else, I don't want to care anymore for I don't trust him anymore.. Forgive me Lord, I forgave him half-heartedly, because I can't forget what he did to me... haizzz..
Creta seterusnya pasal kes cemburu... ya sa ada perasaan cemburu yang kian parah... sama teman2, teman2 kepada teman2... adoii.. malas sa mau elaborate sne, tp mmg sa cemburu sgt la, sampai tahap dengki pun ada jgk sket2.. susah la, saya manusia biasa jak, bukan santo2, x dpt saya hapuskan sepenuhnya perasaan buruk ne, alangkah busuk hatinya saya..ya saya mengaku saya ne mmg jahat dalam part ne.. dah tu saya sudah jarang rujuk kepada-NYA dan buat lg perkara2 yg berdosa... Tuhan tlg la "laknat" kan saya sket bt sa sedar... x sanggup lg tanggung perasaan gilak ne..
haha.. finish already what I wanted to say.. see you soon, or not much sooner XD
bye for now,
p/s: Illumination, is all my heart need at this moment
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